Let The Battle of Wills Begin

RBG note: I wrote this yesterday 3/11/09 but then started my official master cleanse prior to dinner at 5 p.m. so I am rounding into day 2 entering my 17th hour of no food. Just wanted to keep myself honest. So far I have had massive headaches. Two Motrin before bed helped me sleep but it was still there to greet me in the morning. Drinking about 12 oz of "the potion" since rise has helped. I'm also armed with my cantene of water and a total of 36 (more) ounces of potion to get me through my classes till early afternoon. Day 2 starts at 5 p.m. ****

"A fast is a test of will power... it is simply mind over matter."
~ Self, first Master Cleanse 2005

Sooo, today was officially my first day starting my second (successful) Master Cleanse. I say "successful" because I have attempted since my first but it was a lil bit of cheating going on. OK, there, I said it! And I realize I wasn't cheating nobody but myself blah blah blah... ok *eyeroll* I get it! lol

BUT my first one in 2005, I did withstand food for five whole days, but I broke terribly and didn't do orange juice the first day of breaking fast as recommended but I am armed and ready this time. One of my Sorors just finished it for 10 whole days as recommended and I figured if someone I actually KNOW can withstand it.. surely I can do it too. Reading testimonials of strangers is not the same as knowing someone who withstood the trials and tribulations this cleanse brings. It's gonna get ugly up in here. Which is why I will journal about it. Not only does that keep me held accountable, but might help me work through the issues at the same time.

I also told people in my life, including my students, what was going on so I can have all eyes on me. And then they can motivate me and keep me on the path should I feel like straying. So I had my last meal... and it was a goodie: organic round steak, trimmed fat, broiled with baked mac and cheese and sweet corn. *whew*



I cleaned the plate and NOW I'm ready to cleanse myself. :) So I armed myself with all the proper tools to be successful. Unlike previously I decided to mix a big gallon batch vs. 32 oz. containers. This way, I have to mix less. The less I have to mix the better because when I start wanting to eat ... something I will grow impatient and grab a piece or fruit or bread or something. Also unlike previously, I went with fresh organic lemon vs. bottled juice.















So I juiced whole lemons and mixed it with my syrup and voila... big batch ready to take on the world. Tonight I will drink my Smooth Move tea after a cup of herbal tea (wid a dash of lemon sweetened with the syrup). And in the morning, I am dabating if I will do salt water flush because I have to go to work and it's been my experience that my SWF starts working muuuuch later than the book says on the first few days lol. Meaning (for those who are clueless of the MC) that the book says the SWF flush will start working through the intestines and cause a bowel movement within about an hour.... yeah, um, not so much for the kid! It willl surprise me in the middle of my morning like, what's up! That probably says a lot about my tummy, but I digress.
Looks sorta like apple cider... or very clouded piss... depending where your head is, lol. I will need more syrup for sure... At 18.99 a pop. I hope only two more, tops. :- Depends how hungry I get in those later days. Right now at 6-8 glasses a day, I may survive on just one more. *crosses fingers*

OK, so I'm ready..... send me positive vibrations. See you in 24 hours to officially commemorate the start of day 2 (1 p.m. C.S.T.)

One Time For Your Mind

I'm thinking about detoxing... with every facet of my life pleasing me, my waistline started tryin to grow on me. I am double cursed because I eat when I am distressed and I eat when I get comfortable and happy with certain situations, people, relationships. Now, the comfortability wouldn't be such a bad thing if I was still in my best shape and as active as I once was. But I am working on that. (Which reminds me, I need to buy large index cards... I've started studying and I need the cards so TB and random strangers can help me study.) I am scheduled to take my certification exam on 3/28/09. (Which reminds me, I have to book my room for that Friday. Early morning test in the suburb.. I will not enjoy the ride.) Hmmm, I miss my memory. lol I think I look good at any weight... even when I was sitting at the door of 200 pounds, I thought I was hoooot so even though my lust handles bug me sometimes, the weight really isn't the issue... but mostly what's freaking me out... is how I feel. I miss my energy.

I still have a plenty, for those who know me. Kinda a spit fire... but if you can believe it... I used to have MORE. *suggestive eyebrow raise* I been finding a lot of old photos of "skinny me" lately and I guess I choose that as my sign to get it to friggin gether. I know there's a lot of opinions about detoxing and how it's ineffective and a "waste of time" and unhealthy, but whatever. I've done several safe ones. I'm weird, but I truly believe they rejuvenate you because they have you being one wid your body. They clear your mind, center you and release toxins as you rinse them out.* I guess I just think about how I've felt after them in the past... amazing. And since I already feel great wid everything in my life having greatness behind it... I imagine myself after this one feeling something near euphoric. I mean, really. Cleaner, lighter, brighter skin (after that ugly phase that comes wid detox) and a stronger core and clean palatte to start with as we welcome spring with all her glory and I release the butterfly... 2008 left off so great and 2009 has been magnificent thus far... and I'm gonna keep this peace wid me thru this year and until I leave this earth. (Dramatic, I know... but true.) I enjoy happiness... it feels great to say, "I'm happy" and really, really, really mean it.

Thank you, Jah for all the many blessings you have bestowed upon me thus far.... without your grace, where would I be? My family, my home, my love, my health... thank you. I know now, I am truly worthy

I'm ready to purge and spring clean to be truly truly free of all the yuckiness. Yah!

I wish I had a local buddy, detoxes are always easier wid a backbone, but I've done it solo before. But spring is the best time of the year to do a detox, so I am using that as my inspiration. I'm going to do the often-thought complex Master Cleanse (known in some circles as The Lemonade Diet) for 10-day detoxification. Break for 2-3 days as instructed. Then move into fresh juices and whole foods. 21 days total... then moving into JUST whole foods and high-quality H20... rounding out just in time for my exam. It's fool proof. *nervous face*

No coffee, nor alcohol, no meat, and well... I'll keep you posted! lol


*statements on detoxing are not approved by the FDA and no one should undergo a detox without first consulting his/her physician for guidance and safety