Soooo, I felt kinda like an asshole after my last post after I really took time to put things into perspective. Millions of people worldwide have no choice but to "fast" daily, only they call it starvation. And here I am volunteering to go without food to better my spiritual and mental clarity and cleanse my digestive system while giving it a rest and have the audacity to complain about it! Le sigh... I will try best not to whine anymore in regards to this. In the same breath I was reminded by a support group poster that while that may be true... what I was choosing to put into my body wasn't always wholesome foods and beverages and that I was in a sense abusing food and liquor. "Just because it is available does not mean that we use food in a way that is positive," she said and she's so right. I can't begin to discuss how many times I stopped at a fast food drive thru to pick up something ladened with fat and very little nutritional value in the last month. Way too many times.
I concluded that food smells definitely had a lot to do with the moods yesterday because today I was OK. When I did the MC in 2005, I didn't have a child. While I had a roommate it wasn't a shared meal household unless we made it such, so it was easy to disassociate myself and confine myself to my room for the time of the fast. I can't do that with my sun however, he has to eat and I am responsible for feeding him. I got that out the way yesterday tho and he's good for the rest of the week. Which works well for me because heating up things isn't as much of a problem and tempt as cooking a full meal. Furthermore he just wanted yummy snacks today mostly... so he got things like granola, raisins, yogurt, fruit... you get the point. Sometimes he's a picky eater.
I got up this morning and after prayer, did 20 minutes of yoga poses via the Wii Fit. Got some optimal stretching in after taking a day off yesterday to do nothing but laundry. The bloating yesterday was a new feeling. It's not an issue today. My legs are still a lil tender from my 5-mile walk Saturday but stretching and yoga helped immensely. I opted not to drink tea tonight. I will attempt to do a SWF at 6 a.m. rise to see what happens before I leave at 7:30 since I have to work. If I sleep in, I prolly won't do a SWF at all and just tea it up twice tomorrow. I don't want to be blowing up the bathroom at my job! I usually do all my releases in the a.m. and chill for the rest of the day so as long as I can crawl out of bed to get it done, I should be OK. For a change, not only have I already packed both our bags, I also picked out our outfits AND ironed them. Now to just pour my concoction into my thermos (cayenne already packed) so I am hoping for a good mornin and an early start.
Not much longer before sweet yummy orange juice and vegetable soup.
Forward!
