(Oh ee oh, dancin in) September Epiphany

Well hello there! I'm still here... feelin fat and what not.

I've been on a celebratory binge to enjoy getting a job offer on Friday. In RETROSPECT, I did it a lot more controlled than I normally would. So for that, I am proud of myself. But I'm really trying to get back to business as usual.

Tomorrow, I'm gonna try out a run. On my knee. Pray for me.

This will be a very busy week for me planning meals, getting together a schedule I'm comfortable with, researching a YMCA near my (new) job for lunchtime workouts, getting a cooler for my car to house my food and snacks for the day, researching day cares and the like... it's cool cause for the first time in a long time, I find myself pulling out a gym bag from the storage area for lunchtime workouts... This is going to work, pun intended.

With September upon me... I must focus. I think getting a schedule about my day will help immensely. Now if only my (new) supervisor would call me about the lunch date we're supposed to have to discuss particulars. I'm too excited about this opportunity for it to fall through now... soooo... come on. I'll call him in the morning to see if we're still on.

In the meantime, I have two other day cares to check out tomorrow. Hopefully, will be able to make my choice by Friday.

I'm really, really excited about all that's going on... and I feel really good about the progress I'll make. Before when I wasn't working, working out was my sanctuary and then it was taken from me with the knee stuff... but now it will be an addition to my actual LIFE. Hopefully... oyee... call me back! haha

30 x 30 Challenge
So today is the first of my favorite month ~ September. I adore fall... and it is the welcome to it. I am determined to center my chi and focus to drop (not lose, because when you lose things you ultimately find them) 30 pounds to my goal weight. Exactly 19 weeks to my 30th birthday. And I have a plan in mind... I wish I could stay in reflective mode ALL DAY because that is when I am my best. I really miss my runs, so I AM going to get up in the morning and give one a good old try.. and pray like hell it doesn't hurt or irk.

SO.. I'm gonna keep it to 1200-1350 calories.. I'm going to see about getting through the months of September with no red meat or pork and no more than 4 oz of meat a day. Lots of fruit and veggies.

A (hopeful) C25K run 3 times a week.

Strength training through Chalene Extreme... MUST get through this 3-month program.

When all is said and done... my goals will come into existence but I definitely need to:

1. Stop getting down on myself when I do slip.
2. Turn every negative into a positive until the negatives disappear.
3. BELIEVE in myself.
4. Learn how to control my impulses and celebrations.

Through a steady routine of running and strength training... I must emerge.

I'm tired ya'll... tired of not living to my potential. Tired of not being the size I'm supposed to be... the health I deserve... the energy I need... but I can't continue to talk about it. In fact... I'm tired of that too. It's time for action. And I know I have had epiphany's before... or thought I did... but I'm seriously done... talking.

Time for some action.

This September of 2009 is the beginning of my new life, a healthier life with my sun, my love and working hard for the things I want to keep me grounded.

Time for some action.

Weekly Reflection... Percentages... Injured Randomness...

So with weigh-in upon me... this day has been an energetic ride uphill... hard. I've been reflecting since I woke up from my late nap (6 p.m.) My food tracking has been kinda shady and sporadic the last couple days. And I got on the scale and saw a number I didn't appreciate despite seeing a number I appreciated yesterday. Now, because I know it's not always good to weigh yourself everyday, and ESPECIALLY not different times everyday, I wasn't trippin too much on the numbers/difference but it DID make me wonder about how truly committed to this I am. With a sore knee pickin at me since Tuesday, I've wondered about everything about it from it being a simple sprain that will fade with time to an injury that will be with me for the rest of my life. I immediately (in my world) was angry with myself because well, our knees suffer from the pressure of our body weight more than any other joint. And here I am 30 lbs heavier than I should be. Of course my poor knee is gonna whine. *sigh* Then I thought about my poor tracking.. knowing how important it is to journal food... how could I let this fall by the wayside? I want to be in MAINTENANCE MODE by the winter... how in the heck can I get there if I am not committed EVERYDAY?

So I started thinking, what percentage am I giving?

Anyone can log a thousand fitness minutes a week but if that person is still eating trash... the results will be less than stellar.

Likewise, if one is eating clean without any activity, you'll see the difference but muscle tone and strength and overall health are lessened...

These two are interchangeable... and once I really realize that, perhaps that is when I will really start to morph and see that. I have to learn to balance life, love and all that's in between for myself... to get to 100% committed. Nothing less than that will do. With that said, I've decided to start sharing my food trackers. Not that anyone will really read them, but knowing that someone might... perhaps that'll keep me accountable.

Blah... It seems I'm in a mood.

Blame the "injury"... reflections eternal.

Head and Shoulders, Knees and Woes... Knees and Woes.

I felt so good when my eyes popped open this a.m. then I placed my feet down and felt that it wasn't a dream, I did hurt my knee and it was still quite tender. The PLAN was to go to the gym this a.m. and give the elliptical a spin. But after a little bit of thought, I decided to take it easy today and see what I feel like in the morning. (Tomorrow is SUPPOSED to be my third day of week four but we shall see.) I did 20-minute Turbo Jam (the culprit that pulled my knee in the first place) and it didn't feel too bad. I moderated some of the moves to low impact not because I was hurting but to be safe.

My focus today was super clean eating (ehh, I did OK) and cleaning the kitchen (halfway done) since I am getting around on it better than yesterday (ahhh, progress). I was also supposed to do Turbo Sculpt for what I thought would be some upper-body lifting but I turned it on and it was a lot of whole-body work (i.e., bicep curls with squats etc) and I didn't want to overdo it... cause I'm praying I can get through my run OK tomorrow morning. But I did make sure to do SOMETHING.

I didn't ice much today as expected.. I only rested and elevated it a lot. I'm just really praying that I can get back on the tread tomorrow for a successful W4D3. I just really enjoyed Tuesday's run and want to get back out there... plus I feel and see it working in my quads, hammy's, hell, even my abdomen... even at a glacial pace of 4.0... it starting to thrill me. But, I'm not idiot. If I have to wait till Friday or Saturday, I guess that's what I will have to do. It'll just be a little frustrating; but off bat I was planning to spend at least two solid weeks on week four before moving on to Week 5. This is the first time I've experience a knee problem so I am really out of my element on how to address it. But I've been reading helpful articles and feel confident and blessed that it wasn't worse and I am taking proper precautions. It could have been much worse, sidelining me indefinitely yanno?

In more exciting news, I am moving my closet frames upstairs tomorrow finally so that we can start putting them together and adding the walls and prep for the poles and things. So it's gonna be a busy day whether I like it or not. So hopefully I treat my knee well enough tonight that she praises me with act-right tomorrow. :)

This was originally gonna be a "sad" post... filled with "woe is me" but it turns out I may not need to turn on the dramatics after all.. the small set back was just a slightly painful, irritating reminder to ALWAYS practice perfect form, keep soft knees and watch for foot/ankle placement in aerobic activity. And who doesn't need to know those hard-fast and important rules? If we're gonna be doing this for a lifetime journey (as we all should) we're gonna need to make it as safe as possible.

Onward and downward!

Week (4) In The Knee(s)

Today was W4D2 and it was AWESOME. NO shin pain. I decided to run at a speed of 4.0 (15-min mile). By slowing it down from jump, it seems my my shin really appreciated it. It's still soon time for new shoes. The side of my foot, (perhaps a bunion? not sure need to get an expert opinion it's been there as long as I can remember) was rubbing and irritating me so a larger shoe (as the guy at the store suggested) will be in order. But besides that, the shoes and I are starting to mesh.

So I did 35 minutes of that and then (since I got off to a slow start this a.m. and wasn't able to check out the jump start cardio class at 6:15) came home and did 20-min Turbo Jam. During it, I think -- no I know -- I pulled something in my already tender knee.. Ugh.

I've been hecka active lately... not including my 1500-calories burned day last week, I'm upping my cardio more and more AND my intensity levels. I've also been spending this week getting the house in order... for real this time!! Yesterday I finished the entire upper level to prepare for the closet frames that are being moved upstairs Thursday. I need to workout as much as possible and get the house together before I go back to work. School is back in session very soon.

If I have it in me, I'm gonna do Cardio Party (42 mins) for Turbo Jam. Oh, and I must must must do squats today. Trying to keep my booty spectacular and this cardio is already trimming at it. Bitter sweet this workout business is, but I can keep it tight and high. lol BUUUTTTT with a sensitive knee it would probably be best for me to R.I.C.E it and try again toma, starting with low-intensity. My homework assignment: find a Y with yoga and water aerobics. Need those kindsa activities to combat high-impact runs and Turbo Jam.

In nutritional news, I am cutting my calories a bit this week to kinda shock my system. Only thing is that went to sh*t yessaday... so boo to that, but today is a new day and the smaller number on the scale this a.m. was motivation to keep it together to prep for Friday's weigh-in.

I made a raspberry strawberry protein smoothie to utilize my last cup of raspberries before they went bad. LAST time I buy "exotic" fruit from the Food 4 Less in a crunch instead of waiting for Saturday Farmer's Market. Ugh. *scoffs* Food 4 Less... it's less alright! Food 4 Less Quality.

My shake had me completely full until lunchtime AND it was delicious. Hopefully Ricing for today and toma will help. If there is a God in Heaven. I don't want to detour or deter my progress thus far. Oyeee... just when I get one thing figured out, mo drama. Wish me luck.

Relax and Take Note...

With everything finally starting to get moving in the health and wellness category of my life, but some bumps in the road poppin up, I thought now would be a good time to regroup and reanalyze my workout and how I am going to conquer the next 25-30 pounds without hurting anything or inefficiently.

Mo Runnin, Mo Problems
So, I started to get a bit discouraged with my run routine because of the shin splint recurrence. I haven't quit the C25K training, but I haven't been on the treadmill since Wednesday morning. I felt like I needed to slow down. My competitive nature had me wanting to attack each week like GRR! but the fact remains that I DO have shin splints and I DO have the wrong shoes and I do not have time for an injury that leaves me incapacitated. SO I have to slow down. In two ways. Firstly, I have to slow down my speed (I'm currently running at 4.8-5.0 and walking at 2.8-3.0). Secondly, I have to master a week first before moving on to the next. It's called condition training. Athletes do it all the time. I have to condition my body and that shin splint to the work I am putting in, before I can ask it to do more than that... or I am setting myself up for painful failure. So, on week three I will stay until I feel more comfortable to move on. In fact, I may stay on week 3 until I get the new shoes I absolutely need. Then try to move on to week four run intervals in the proper shoes and try those out on my shin splint since Fleet Feet has a 21-day return policy.

Beefing up Le Cardio
So I had been running and not much else for cardio with an occasional Turbo Jam here and there. I've decided, I really have to ramp up my activity on the cardio side for now and focus on more strength training after I break the 160 barrier. At 155 in 2006, I was still a little flabby in the back area. So at 160 I will start beefing up my strength training, but for now, I am going to take that down a notch, because strength training makes me hungrier because of the calories I'm burning, but I don't actually know what my caloric intake should be on those days and I feel I am still to early in the weight loss process to try and gamble. I want calorie restriction, muscle conditioning and THEN I'll work on getting stronger. For now, I just need to keep my muscles present (don't wanna lose em or weaken them with so much cardio and NO strength training) with endurance lifting. So I will do my C25K three times a week (75 minutes) and elliptical (150 minutes) and Turbo Jam 2 times a week (100 minutes) for a total of 325 minutes a week. Turbo Sculpt for strength, Thin Thighs for lower body for FOUR weeks.. and then reevaluate on Monday August 17...

Chocolate City Dreamin
My goal is to break the 160 barrier before exiting the month of July (three pounds in two weeks). But also I am trying to lose about 5 more to be at 165 by the time I tentatively travel to DC for some work I am negotiating and trying to line up. I will run into some old faces from my 150-lb days, so it's mighty important to stick to the plan so I don't arrive too much over weight. lol

Serenity is nigh
So, I have found the final piece (chaise lounge loveseat) to add to my Serenity Room. A room I am creating in the upper level of my home where I can pray, meditate, watch girly movies, have a cocktail, sing... well, you get the point. Somewhere where the boys aren't allowed, unless I say so. Think of it as my Claire Room from the Cosby Show! I will definitely post some before and after pics of the small renovation. Also, the measurements have been taken for the closet. The upstairs is gonna be niiiii. I pick up the chaise toma. :-)

Back to the grill again in the a.m. I enjoyed my rest days and am excited to get that cardio counter UP.

"I got the pepper!"

OK, so even tho Shila started whining at around 11 minutes, I am smiling about my morning run to complete W2D3 of C25K Training. For those of you who have had the unfortunate pleasure of hearing me complain during Week 2, you know I got very frustrated that my new shoes didn't take care of an irritated shin splint that started getting louder as I increased my run intervals...

But I am proud to say that I could not have planned my run better this morning. Shila was patient with me, the TV in front of the treadmill was playin a symbolic message and my iPod playlist was "jammin on the one!" Allow me to explain:

OK, so a little back story, after Wednesday's dreadfulness, I started stretching and stretching hard, yesterday I was scared to do any form of anything worried about how it would affect my run today... but alas, thanks to a challenge via Spark People, I did my last chance workout and got in my Burn Circuit 3 Strength Training session and a 20-minute Turbo Jam aerobics session before bed.

I stretched some more afterwards and then took a hot bath where I stretched some more... and my bath, was simply awesome. HOT water, Rosemary drops, eucalyptus bubbles, Epsom salts and lil ol sore me. It was soooo nice. I am not really a bath person, but I am definitely squeezing in one of these as part of my weekly routine which by the way is tweaking a little bit to incorporate my run.. and changing my off day(s) a little bit. I'll talk about this later... back to how great my run was.

The title of this blog (for non-Cosby Show junkies) comes from one of my favorite episodes where Cliff (Bill Cosby) is asked to run in a 4 X 400 relay as a special race between his alma mater and their old rival! And his coach, to ask him how he was feeling, would ask him if he got the pepper! Meaning, (in non-Cosby like speak) "are you ready to kick this race's ass?!" OK, so not very exciting if you've never run track, but for me it was a nice little sign that the run might not be as bad as I anticipated it... cause, I can't front, I went in today a little confident, but also a little scared. But after that, "I got the pepper!"

Secondly, the first song to kick off my 5-minute brisk walk was "More" by Rhymefest.
No matter how much I get (I want more)
Even when I talk my shit (I want more)
Every party on every list
And everybody want a life like this
But still (I want more)
Which helped cause I do expect more out of myself now that I am getting older. I really am going to kick this fit thing in the butt... for good! Every song after that was great too... I compiled the playlist (143 songs total) and shuffle it every run morning, but sometimes a song I love comes on at the wrong moment of my run and I have to switch. I didn't have to switch once today... yah!!

Third and lastly, today, I am going to Fleet Feet off a recommendation from my Pers (Sorority Sister) about how they examine your run and stride and tell you what kind of shoes you need based on your assessment. In gist, they really analyze everything about your run from your feet to your stride to determine how to make your run experience the most comfortable. Since we are in a recession, I simply can't afford to toss the $75 shoes I just bought and get new ones, so hopefully a simple insert will help much. Monday begins Week 3 and I won't enjoy 3-minute jog intervals if Shila's ass is nagging me the whole time. So hopefully this consultation will garner some great realizations... because I WILL RUN my first 5K this fall. You just better damn believe it!

So the weekend is generally a time for resting for me, but with the new schedule Sundays will be my first day of the week for strength. This particular weekend will be more intense because in the morning I am going on a 7.7-mile hike in Busse Woods (when Saturday is usually my rest day) with some Walking Group friends of mine. So, I will need to stretch and act right because Monday is back to the tread again.

So, new schedule will be as follows:

Sunday: Burn Circuit 1, stretching
Monday: C25K Training, stretching
Tuesday: Burn Circuit 2, stretching
Wednesday:
• C25K Training
• Burn Intervals
• Ab Burner
• Stretching
•Special Bath

Thursday: Burn Circuit 3, stretching
*Friday:
• C25K Training
• Burn It Off (Cardio)
• Recharge (Intense Yoga-like stretching)

Time for breakfast... *still smiling*

* Because Friday is so intense, I will classify this as my last chance workout... I will now weigh myself once a week for official numbers early Saturday mornings.

Shila, The Shin Splint

"What if I'm never able to run a 5K?"
~Defeatist to Support System while icing an agitated shin splint

I should have known the minute I was in my good sleep, drooling, happy dreaming and The Sun headbutted me at 4:40-something this morning that it was going to be a peculiar morning workout. He didn't go back to sleep right away or relatively quickly. First wave alarm (5:20 a.m.) came and went. Second wave (5:30 a.m.) came and went with my sun looking at me wide eyed and rubbing the area he bruised... guess he saw irritation in my face. We lay there quietly... last chance wave (5:40 a.m.) silenced... I tried to will him to sleep but he was just too strong. Finally we both dozed off at some point. I woke up at 8 a.m. to him snuggled up under my arm. *sigh*

Not to be outdone, I got up and got ready anyway.. after all if I am going to run the 5K this fall, I have to stay on schedule. So since beginning training I been feeling really great. Each day was cool... slightly challenging in the calorie-burnin department... I felt I was really making some progress. I resumed Chalene Extreme this week and Burn Circuit 2 was yesterday and I woke up with tight hammy's... little did I know that was the least of my problems.

I got new shoes Monday and was so looking forward to using them on the second day/run of week 2 (W2D2) because that damn Shila was irritating me and I figured it was because I needed new shows... well I put those sexy light puppies on today and my Shila's ass started screaming again. She gets on my nerves. She and I have been kicking it since 1996 when I overtrained for regionals (track and field) and we been hanging tough every time I up the amount of my vigorous workout. She is the reason I've steered clear of running. She just doesn't like me to do it. But I've read conflicting articles that there is really no cure for this strain and you just kinda have to care for it and hope for the best... what's a girl to do?!

I did finish my run, but I felt like sh*t afterwards. Not because Shila was still screaming, she calmed down once I was off, but because I don't want this damn runner's injury to haunt me for the rest of my damn life. (You know I'm mad cause I said "damn" twice!) I want to RUN a 5K. I know I was a sprinter, but man... I'm old and I want to do some aerobic activities like long runs. I already know I can do anaerobic ones (quick sprint-like activities i.e., 100-yard dash, shot put, etc.). Further... I should be able to run.

I also think it might be my stride. Again, I haven't really ran in ever and I am trying to figure out HOW to run... I mean, my Wii Fit will rudely tell me that my balance is quite awkward and I don't walk evenly... but not sure how to fix these kindsa things besides doing what I'm doing. Core exercises, strengthening all my muscles etc. W2D2 only requires me to run for 90 second intervals... wtf am I supposed to do when it wants me to run for two minutes, three minutes... hell, 25 minutes?! I'm just feeling like I'll never get this done... and it's bugging me something fierce. I am hoping I left it all on the treadmill and just gonna do some serious stretching b/t now and Friday morning... let us not forget, I have Burn Intervals cardio to do today and Burn Circuit 3 tomorrow for Chalene Extreme.

One thing is for sure, I'm GOING to run a 5K. And I'm gonna keep running them... so I have to figure out some good preventative measures because I just can't afford to will not fail.



"Calm down, SHILA!!"